Some Changes On My Mind

I don’t know, man. Sometimes I feel like it might soon be time to abandon ship. I’m not sure how much longer I can stand to be around so many people all piled into one place, and keep thinking I might soon decide to just get out of the city once and for all. I probably won’t, because it’s been on my mind for years and I haven’t done much about it yet, but I guess we never really know what the future holds. I just know my past experience with success has been…I haven’t really had any. Haha

Sometimes life just happens and we do little more than hold on for the ride. I’m definitely a passenger, through and through.

Been able to slowly watch things off my PVR the past few days. Checked out Designated Survivor (of course) and liked it okay, but the premiere was definitely all about setting up the story and introducing the characters. Which is really all it can be, but I look forward to seeing where things go from here. Note that “look forward to seeing” could also be read as “impatient to see”. Haha

I really, really liked the series premiere of Pitch! I like the format of fluid movements between past and present, I love the characters so far, particularly the protagonist and the team’s catcher. I love that they found kids who could actually have been the lead actress at different stages of her life – like, they’ve time-travelled to the present so they could play her earlier years. I love that it came out swinging and set the tone and – for the premiere, at least – isn’t treating the series as a one-act play. Young black woman becomes the first female to play in major league baseball. I’d seen comments about how it should have been a movie because there aren’t legs for a series, but after having seen the first episode, I have to disagree. Well, I already disagreed, but now I disagree more. More than 2 decades went into the moment she stepped onto the field for the first time, and that moment wasn’t the beginning of her journey. There’s more to come, and there’s more that has passed, and that it’s engaging thus far bodes well, as far as I’m concerned. I’m on board.

Speaking of coming out swinging – holy returns for Quantico and How To Get Away With Murder! So so good! I’m right back in love with both shows, and actually a little afraid to find out who died at the end of the season premiere of HTGAWM. I suspect I’ll watch the next episode with a drink in hand. Or a few.

I was asked recently about what I want to do next; what my dream would be, to do with my life. I don’t have an answer for that yet. Some vague ideas, but nothing I can pin down. I used to think I would be a teacher. Sometimes I still do, but I’m not really meant for a public school classroom, I don’t think. Maybe something a little different, but still education-related.

I’ve also been enjoying some small event planning, media marketing, public relations and…I don’t know what to call it…pseudo producing? With respect to The Mind Reels and interviews and radio plays and breaking a Guinness World Record. I have so many ideas for taking even larger steps, and some seem to be coming to fruition, which is encouraging. I would need to narrow my focus to see if I could actually succeed in any of those environments, but there’s definitely something there worth considering, I think. I’m just not sure what yet.

And then there’s the non-human animals of the world. I need to find a way to stop feeling like I need to save everybody, but that doesn’t mean I can’t find a way to work with and/or for them. Even after a rather bad day at my volunteer shift this past weekend, getting to spend time with Marley the ring-tailed lemur before I left, and then taking Brody the Munchkin out for a long walk when I got home did a lot to heal my mood. As did talking about it a bit the next day – but that was like the final step I needed. Mostly it was the good animal interactions that brought me the balance I’d lost from the less desirable ones. My relationship to animals has changed in countless ways since meeting Hudson the polar bear, and as a result, I think they are actually becoming more of a daily focus for me than less of one. I imagine that can only be a good thing, really, but if I can figure out a way to pursue that environment more regularly in my life, I think that might feel like the most right path for my spirit. Maybe not for my pocketbook, nor always for my heart.

But I don’t own a pocketbook, anyway, so what have I got to lose?

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General Thoughts From A Foggy Mind

Got an email last night for members from the Toronto Zoo. As predicted, Inukshuk, handsome papa polar bear to Hudson, Humphrey, Juno and two others, is heading up north to Cochrane sometime next week. I figured he’d be going up to the Polar Bear Habitat, because he usually does spend his winters there.

What I didn’t realize until I got the email was that he’s going indefinitely this time, and I won’t have a chance to say goodbye.

That hurts my heart, because I’ve come to love that sweet beautiful giant so much, and I always miss seeing him when he’s not here. The idea of never seeing him again is not okay with me, so I’m thinking a trip north next year sometime might be in order.

Regardless, I’m gonna miss that guy.

At least the Polar Bear Habitat will post lots of pictures and updates, though. They are GREAT for that! I’ve never even met Ganuk (Inukshuk’s son whose paw print painting is on my bedroom wall) or Henry (the new guy from Australia), but I kind of feel like I know them, just from the amazing updates I see online!

So it won’t be all bad, at least. I feel bad for Hollie because she has an extra soft spot for that particular bear, but I guess changes are afoot, and something exciting and new might come out of all this one day, too.

I’m out of it today and feeling like I can’t really figure out what I want to say. I’ll miss the bear, I’m excited for the WLU alumni homecoming event tomorrow, my weekend is super busy but hopefully I will get things done, my PVR is filling up with new fall shows and new seasons of returning series. Well…not really filling up, but definitely getting used more! And all to be watched on my shiny new TV.

It’s funny – I’m not used to it yet, but at the same time, I’ve settled into it so comfortably that I feel like it’s been here for longer than it actually has been. Still giddy, yet comfy. I like it.

So much to do; so much to doooo.

I think Brody and I will have popcorn for dinner tonight. I won’t be able to have any for a bit after my dental surgery thingy next week, because my gums will need time to heal before I introduce crunchier foods again. So stove-popped corn – probably with cheese – tonight, and hopefully some delicious movie theatre corn with one of my best friends on Sunday! That should realistically tide me over for a week or two while my mouth heals, but we’ll see.

I can always just focus on chewing on one side, right?

Foggy Dumb-Dumb

So, I had an idea of what I felt like talking about here today, but I’ve completely forgotten, so will just babble for a few minutes, instead.

You see, I was at the doctor this morning getting some blood work and the like done, and because it had been over 10 years since my last tetanus booster shot, we decided to just get that out of the way while I was there. Then I went to work.

Now, naturally, I feel like ass.

And since my brain works on par with being a foggy dumb-dumb right now, it’s not really worth the effort it would take for me to try and say something intelligent, anyway.

I had a lovely afternoon/evening with the critters I live with when I got home from Toronto Comicon yesterday. The sun was out, so I took Brody for a walk. The treats lady he loves was also out with one of her dogs, so we all went around the block together. We bumped into several other doggies along the way, of course, and there’s nothing much more awesome than doggies saying hi to one another, AND doggies saying hi to me! There were many love fests to be had, which made all of us happy.

I didn’t get much watched off my PVR, unfortunately, but hopefully the upcoming long weekend (aka Easter) will allow me to get more caught up. I can’t even remember what I did end up watching – Blindspot, How To Get Away With Murder, a re-run of Mom…I can’t remember what else. #foggydumbdumb

Anyway, while I was watching TV, I finally got started on felting! Or, at least, trying to teach myself how to do it. I’d decided to start with just making a ball, and then made a smaller ball, then was in the process of attaching them to one another when I realized I should probably go to bed. So far, though, I really like the act of poking the needle into the roving. It’s the soothing kind of repetitive task that I love because it helps me wind down. Except that, because I do love it, I run the risk of losing track of time, but we’ll see how it goes! For now, I shall just continue to work on my little blue felted snowman (hopefully a little every evening, more or less), and then try practicing on different shapes until I get the hang of things. I have several ideas for things I want to make, but for now I’ll just work on learning, and experiement with other ideas later, if and when my skills develop! At first blush, though, I am digging this whole felting thing, even more than the clay thing. It’s a bit easier on my hands so far, for one thing, because with clay, but the time I’ve kneaded it into a softer, more malleable state, my hands are already sore and tired. I’m not sure if one crafting process is faster than the other yet – because I am slow at both – but I’m pretty excited about how the initial felting test went, and can’t wait to do more!

Speaking of exciting, I got some news this morning that I’ll reveal when I have more details, but suffice it to say that I was so happy that I got a little teary for a moment, then came to work and submitted a vacation request for a couple of days!

So we’ll see.

I’ve had lunch and been drinking a lot of water, but so far I’m still all #foggydumbdumb. Still able to get things done…just a little slower than usual. And with more double-checking. haha